[Anonymous]

I returned home from university after exams finished as I thought it would do me some good as I felt quite burnt out. I didn't even feel happy when I finished exams, I just wanted to get away.

I spend my days getting outdoors as much as possible to keep me and my mind busy but I keep randomly bursting into tears about things.

First, I miss a really special someone who I was seeing at university who was on an exchange from Canada and we broke it off but I feel like they are doing something better now and I am stuck here. I want to be with them but it's not possible right now. I will never meet somebody like them and it really hurts to the point I feel physically ill.

Second, literally all of my closest friends at university are leaving when I go into final year - lots are doing erasmus, two of my closest friends are taking a year out to attend universities in the States as part of their course, so they won't be here and I will have graduated.


Third, I have to find somewhere new to live for final year because my current housemate is moving her boyfriend in so I agreed to let him have my room and move out, it's so stressful because I just don't want to go back to my university city (london) right now as it reminds me of so much ****, and I don't know who I will live with since everyone seems to be f****g off either for good or for the year. I will end up having to go on gumtree or something.

Basically I am really not looking forward to my final year and I can't even enjoy the summer because I keep thinking of things that didn't work out or could have been and I just break down and end up having to lie down in bed to calm down. Do I have a problem?

[Anonymous]

I also spend my evenings listening to sad music and trying so hard not to buy vodka, I am trying SO hard not to drink.

[beth.19]

See a professional. Depression is not a problem, it's an illness, just like the flu, and you need to treat yourself right to get rid of it in the same way. Drinking will only make things worse, I promise you. Alcohol is a depressant. A lot of bad things may be happening but it's the way you deal with them that will change the way you feel about it. You made these friends in your first year so you can make some more now. Ask around and see if anyone else is looking for a roommate or has a room to spare - there's no harm in asking. Try and stop ruminations about all this and try and change some of it. You're reaching out for help here so you know something isn't right, that should be your catalyst to see a doctor. Good luck.