[Anonymous]

Anonymous please please please.

I'm 17 now, but when I was in Year 3 at primary school a group of lads from my class were calling girls to down near the bottom of the field behind the school. I remember me and a friend were on the field already so we went over.
At least 2 of the guys pushed me on to the ground and pinned me down and undressed my bottom half and proceeded to look at my area. I was fighting against them and shouting for my friend to help me but I couldn't break free. I think them "observing" was as far as it went, no touching or anything...
For years I've pushed it to the back of my mind but this year it's come back to haunt me, so to speak. I can't get the images out of my head and I feel awfully guilty and in a way disturbed.
I'm questioning my sexuality as I have been attracted to a couple of guys my age but I've been falling for women eg celebrities/artists/actresses and teachers...
Is there anything I can do to help me forget about what happened? I just wish I could erase my childhood... It makes me feel dirty and exposed...
Thank you.

[subjectman10]

Tell people you trust, it's good to let it out.

[hannahchan]

speak to a councellor... was this dealt with at the time?

^ sorry the comment before wasn't meant to be anon lol.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by subjectman10)
Tell people you trust, it's good to let it out.

I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. It's far too embarrassing and shameful. If only I wasn't such a weakling. I just want this to leave me alone and stop making my life hell. It's completely ruined my exams. I feel physically sick whenever an image worms it's way into my head and I can't carry on.

[Anonymous]

(Original post by hannahchan)
speak to a councellor... was this dealt with at the time?

I didn't tell anyone then and I haven't until now.

[Anonymous]

I know how you feel. This morning I had a nightmare where I relived the fear I used to feel when my father was being threatening and it brought back so many memories from childhood.

The best thing is to deal with what happened and nothing else. You may get the bad, sickening, melancholy feelings, but they'll pass. Focus on the present.

[Hermione_moo]

I would go see your GP and ask for counselling. I think if you haven't dealt with it by now, there's a good chance your not going to do so on your own, not without some guidance. XX

[subjectman10]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Anonymous please please please.

I'm 17 now, but when I was in Year 3 at primary school a group of lads from my class were calling girls to down near the bottom of the field behind the school. I remember me and a friend were on the field already so we went over.
At least 2 of the guys pushed me on to the ground and pinned me down and undressed my bottom half and proceeded to look at my area. I was fighting against them and shouting for my friend to help me but I couldn't break free. I think them "observing" was as far as it went, no touching or anything...
For years I've pushed it to the back of my mind but this year it's come back to haunt me, so to speak. I can't get the images out of my head and I feel awfully guilty and in a way disturbed.
I'm questioning my sexuality as I have been attracted to a couple of guys my age but I've been falling for women eg celebrities/artists/actresses and teachers...
Is there anything I can do to help me forget about what happened? I just wish I could erase my childhood... It makes me feel dirty and exposed...
Thank you.

Just cope with it as best you can. They didn't do it you alone.
Try keeping it out of your mind and do well in your exams.