(Original post by HayleyQuinn)
You are a bloody brilliant person!
I really hate to whine about these things (and as you can see, one of the other commentators hates it when i whine too! Oh well :P) but it's not too bad if it's individual things, but when it all gets on top of you... it's just too much sometimes to not go on about it to someone :')
So thank you for your very lovely reply, it's now Saturday, and we were on half term, so i couldn't see my teacher, however, i did talk to some of my other friends taking the subject getting higher grades, and i compared my improved writing method with theirs and i'm not too different now! I've gotten all my revision done and tomorrow some psych friends and I are getting together for a revision session!
I've been looking for work and have heard of a few places I may be able to get to to work there over summer, and my mum has found me a permanent position, that I can apply for, and if I get into university, I can quit, and if I don't, I still have a job!
I spoke to a friend who is at the uni I want to go to, and she said her friend was allowed on to the media course (which i hear is popular there, as the facilities are phenomenal!) and he was 60 points short of ucas! I would only be 10, so there's a good chance they may still let me in! Of course i'll try my very best on the exam anyway! I need 12 points apparently, and this time they don't have my least favourite section 'Research Methods' on it, so I can't lose marks on that!
Here's hoping my work pays off and ucas doesn't become an issue! Though I hate to get too optimistic about exams because every time I do, or come out saying "That was easy!" I always do really badly xD
My guy 'friend' and I don't talk any more nowerdays, and that's for the best because he is a massive douchbag, but I just get sad over it sometimes because he was my closest friend and I cared an awful lot about him, and it turns out he was a completely different person and doesn't care about anyone but himself, and using girls. I spoke to his ex girlfriend about him, because we're friends now, and she said that at the end of their two year relationship, he turned out to be a different person than she thought, so it's not just me, he does that to people, gives them this image of himself to make girls like him, then gradually, he gets bored and drops the act, and is just nasty, but he only does that once they care. He's an odd one, and horrible. It's just difficult remembering that sometimes, because i think back to when he was lovely, but i have to remind myself it was all an act and that he's nasty for the sake of it.
I'm managing with that okay though, it just creeps up on me when i'm already stressed, insult to injury and all that!
As for my friend... i never know what to do with her... I want to believe her, but there are just inconsistencies in what she says... and i feel terrible for doubting her, but... well it's hard not to. I want to be her friend because aside from that we get on great, but it's hard to ignore the fact she could have just been playing me for a fool this whole time
Perhaps the friendship will fizzle out a little if/when i go to university... there's just so many things she trips herself up on now... it's almost a bit obvious.
Eh, my dad is my dad :P he's always like this, he just always pops by when i'm already stressed, like my guy friend and it makes things twice as hard :P but i'll manage, i always do with him.
I was waiting for an appointment here, but that was ages ago, when they finally referred me, it was to somewhere over two hours away for some reason, when we know there are clinics nearer, because i've seen them! It takes so long and the waiting list is ridiculous, i might wait until i go to university (hopefully) and see one there instead of having to come back and forth.
Thank you so much for reading and really actually offering real advice and help, it's just what I needed! Here's hoping my exam goes alright and that the rest follows!