(Original post by Anonymous)
This started with something that i thought would be quite trivial. in year 10, I went for senior prefect, which involved doing speeches to both the student and staff body for votes. I managed to get on the team, but I wish I had never bothered.
I don't know what it is about me, but I was more noticeable than anybody else who bothered and putting myself in front fo the whole school meant that lots more people knew who i was, yet I didn't know anybody else. I have always had some abuse in education, but after I had done that whole election thing, I started getting a hundred-fold the abuse. People would shout and yell at me in the corridor at school (people who i didn't know), everything from sarcastic greetings and compliments to really nasty comments I couldn't imagine saying to anybody. a few members have physically abused me, tripping me over and pushing me. One of them even tried to throw me down the stairs at my old school. I tried reporting them, but as i knew none of the names, I couldn't do anything.
At the time I was 6"
and about 12 and half stone, and so I had abuse about my weight as well. I didn't get this formally diagnosed, but my friends think I had developed an eating disorder, where I would skip 2 meals a day and often would miss dinner from feeling "ill". in my last months of Y11, during my GCSEs, I dropped 3 stone.
now I have finished Y12, yet on the way home from college I still experience verbal abuse on the streets from the people at my old school. They are younger than me, but when i am alone and there are ten of them, I can't do anything about it. I often will camp out in the college library to after 6 so I avoid them, but even then because i live in the same area so I'm scared to go outside anywhere near my house because I know I can meet them. For example, I lead a small group of scouts and they were having a cokking competition last yesterday. They ran out of butter so i had to go to the local sainsbury's and in the carpark I was threatened by a group of about 12 Y11s.
I hope this doesn't sound whiny, but I am absolutely despairing at the minute. I hate exeter and everything about it, I just want to leave so much. I am studying A Levels with the hope of university, but now I want to get into university more so I can get away from this place, than actually wanting to study (which I really do, I have wanted to study medicine for years and have worked really hard both in school to get good enough grades and in voluntary work etc). I have stabilised my diet a little, but I still despise eating anything because I hate the way my body looks. I just don't know what to do though, I have tolerated enough and I don't think I can handle another yea of this. I still don't know who any of them are, is there anything I can do about this?