(Original post by Bettypratchit)
First of all you seem like an inspiration with what you have gone through the past few years, you should be proud of your achievements and don't let others put you down otherwise they're not worth bothering with.
I suggest that maybe it would be helpful if you go to your Doctors to see what they suggest, they may advise you to just talk through your problems with a councillor. Talking, believe me, helps a lot with issue that may happen with you. Maybe talk to your boyfriend instead- or another person you can trust, relieving stress by talking is a recommended idea!
Maybe you should consider producing an action plan of what you want to do with your life in the next 5 years or so e.g. In the next year I want to find a job doing blah.. etc!
This will help you focus on something and deal with the things that are happening around you.
If you are still having surgey on you knee at this stage on your life it does sound like you won't be able to do competitive dancing again, although obviously I am no expert. You never know maybe in a few years time you will be able to do dancing just for fun.
Also there are other ways to be involved with dancing without actually physically doing it, for example maybe you should think about starting your own business or setting up a website where you help people with dance- kind of like coaching them. Or you could simply have a website where it's just an interest site in all things dance!
You have to reasses yourself e.g. your stregths and weaknesses and what other things you enjoy doing apart from dancing that maybe you could do in the future to make a career out of it. For example dance journalism and so on.
I wish you all the luck for the future.