[Anonymous]

I feel paranoid all the time, I feel like everyone hates me and wants to destroy me mentally, even my boyfriend and people that are nice to me. I feel like everyone who's nice doesn't really mean it and has bad intensions. Sometimes I don't know anymore if things are real or if I'm just paranoid, my boyfriend isn't very supportive and just gets annoyed with me which really makes me feel bad.

I have panic disorder and I'm on beta blockers which stop most of the physical symptoms but don't stop the feelings of anxiety and paranoia. I went to my GP again two days ago to get a new prescription, I told him how I feel and he said I should see a counsellor again. I've been seeing one for a while but even my counsellor made me feel paranoid, I felt like he hated me too. After five sessions he said that there's nothing else he can do and I should see a different counsellor but I don't know. It makes me feel so bad to talk about past experiences because I just want to forget them and not talk about them.

I really want to get help but I don't know what to do anymore. My self esteem is completely gone and I've been self harming again and thinking about suicide but I know it's bad.

Is there anything I can do? Should I see a counsellor again or not? I want to feel normal again, it's ****ing me up so much...

[Idle]

Hi, I am just bumping this as you haven't received any replies yet

[Anonymous]

(Original post by Idle)
Hi, I am just bumping this as you haven't received any replies yet

Thanks, I hope I'll get some replies

[Dragonfly07]

My sister is like that. She's too paranoid to get help either because she thinks the doctors are against her. She doesn't speak to me because she thinks I was trying to ruin her life. I wish there was a solution.

Edit: she also has the same feelings as you of everyone having bad intentions. If you speak to her nicely she always thinks about what you could possibly try to gain from her by doing it or how they might try to ruin her life due to pure sadism.

When we were still talking she called me a lot and talked to me about how her professors were trying to make her fail her exams. I told her that she's paranoid and that she needs to see a counselor for help, and then she thought (wrongly!) that I talked to her university because I tried to make her fail the exams too (I don't know how that works. Apparently if I tell anyone that she has problems, especially mental problems, then whether I'm telling the truth or not her life and future career will be ruined by it).

All I can tell you is TRY to GET HELP and don't think the counselor is bad for you (if you can't help those thoughts then ignore them as much as you can). If you don't go you might push people away and I don't want that to happen.

[EvilAligator]

Hey, I know how you feel. I am not very helpful, I know.
But.
I think that your boyfriend should be more understanding- you shouldn't feel bad for making him annoyed.
Sometimes, I guess you just have to accept that people really are just being nice. I know it's hard, but think- why would they be nice if they didn't like you?
It is strange, talking to a councillor, but they really are there for you and don't judge you- they have heard it before, and probably worse.
Sorry for my distinct lack of helpfulness. But feel free to talk to me if you like, if you just want to talk to someone

[bytail]

Perhaps try seeing a different doctor and really stressing just how much this paranoia and anxiety is affecting you. If I were you I'd give the counselling another go, but perhaps something like CBT could be helpful for you? I hope things get a little better for you soon, but if you feel at risk then please go down to A&E and speak to someone

[Anonymous]

Thanks for all your replies!

In the past days I tried to avoid situations and people that make me paranoid, now I'm feeling a bit better and I've decided I'll try a different counsellor and do CBT again. It was helpful when I did it although sometimes I find it hard to get rid of my negative thoughts. I hope it will be helpful so that I can socialise again and do normal things.

[Weeves]

Sometimes its best to let it all out to someone, a family member or just anyone! Getting it of your chest can help big time.

[Dee Leigh]

I admit that I've suffered paranoia since I was very young. I really did believe that everyone was against me and that everyone wanted to hurt me.

The best thing to do is to get help...perhaps go to the GP and get a referral for counselling or CBT. Give it a try.

[Lollyage]

Look into Cognitive Behavioural Therapy