(Original post by Classical Liberal)
This is obviously bothering you. You seem like a well rounded gal, but you are definitely not the best version of you that you can be. I know this for sure, because if you were, you would not be posting on TSR about your life.
What sports do you play there? Do you go into competitions? Do you play any team sports? Do you play any sports where you physically contact people?
Team sports are great. Play some of those, you can actually bond with people and have a social and what not. Competitions are another good one because you will having something to talk about with people. Martial arts and the like a great for becoming more confident about yourself generally, and being more confident around men
Im sorry but girls do not come out of the whom looking tomboyish, you are presenting yourself in a tomboyish fashion. You need to change your look, stop being frumpy and like a guy. Thankgoodness you are fit, so you have a sexy body to work with
But dress yourself up a bit. Wear some nice clothes that show yourself off. Get your makeup to make you look feminine.
You are "plain" and "tomboyish" because you have made yourself that. Just stop doing it. Work on yourself, make yourself a version of yourself that you think a guy would like.
You are understandably quite envious of her.
Well it ****ing should, you seem to be drifting along. Does your family understand this void that you have in your life?
Improve yourself dammit. Don't slide along like this. You are obviously quite upset but you can do something about it. Just continually work at making yourself a better version of you.
Your life will not come into place overnight, it will take time to improve yourself and be the best version of yourself that you can be.
Just don't sit back and think everything will be alright. It won't. You need to be in control of your life and put it in the direction of the place you really want to be. Don't worry about what a guy will think about you not having been in a relationship, as long as you look nice and are cool (which you seem to be), the guy will probably like that you are inexperienced as he will not have to meet expectations that you might have got from another partner.