(Original post by Samrout)
do what you do for your self, not for others. Their judgement is invisible, yours is what matters. Don't place too much emphasis (or any at all) on the way you percieve others think about you. Only put importance on what you think of yourself. So you think you're worthless? Is that because you think others think you're worthless, because you stutter? Can't you remember having a conversation with anyone who stuttered, and not holding it against them?
Your hobbies should be for your own development with your self, not for the approval of others.
I guess I'm quite similar to you, never had a girlfriend by the time i was 18, which didn't bother me too much. I'm not amazing at conversation, because I think that half of what we talk about is really quite pointless, and holds no value. My hobbies are playing guitar and learning about music, among reading about politics and learning about psychopaths. If I take the view that I'm only doing it to impress others and have them say how good I am, then that is putting external conditions on my happiness. If I take the view that I'm getting better at guitar and enjoying what I'm doing, then that is exacerbating internal happiness. I'm doing these things for myself, not for others. And that doesn't make me selfish in any way, because while I do these things for myself, others can benefit from my knowledge and skill.
Have you gotten better at magic tricks? At learning new things we always start out ****ty, but practice makes perfect as the old saying goes. Can you see that not everybody has the patience and the skill, something you have, to follow some things with tenacity? With regards to financial trading, can you see your own awesomeness in personal success through personal knowledge? No one taught you, you had the will
to do it yourself, for yourself, but you just failed to see it at the time.
Do it for yourself, live for yourself, and others will benefit semi-indirectly. It's good that you have a decent level of introspection, otherwise you'll be stuck in this dream forever. Know yourself
And then when you truly do, you'll know everyone else.