[Anonymous]

I was abused when I was younger. I can't remember all the details. I was younger than 10 but that's all I know. And I can't remember if it happened more than once but I think it did. Anyway, it only came back to me recently. I guess I just hid it in the back of my mind somewhere. I went to a support group because of other things happening and someone mentioned that they were abused and then everything came back to me. And now, I can't stop thinking about it. I haven't spoken to anyone about it. It makes me feel sick and it just feels like I can't get away from it. All I want is to be able to forget that it ever happened and continue like I did before.

Some other things happened as well. My parents divorced when I was 11 and my mum met another guy. The guy lived in a rough estate and we would visit every weekend. When I was there, I started to smoke and I'd drink a lot. Even now, when I drink, I don't do it as a social thing. I do it to get drunk because then I don't have to deal with things in my head. I don't do that often but it obviously can't be a good thing. I just don't know what to do any more. How am I supposed to get help if I don't want to talk about it?

[Natasha_321]

Heeey Just bluntly... Why don't you feel you don't want/ can't talk about it? Also how old are you and do you still live with that same person who abused you?
It must be really hard for you atm Can u mention it in your support group or to a friend there, i'm sure it's all confidential. Sorry your parents are divorced mine too when i was 10, am 17 now - i am happy about the divorce as there was a lot of shouting, but it makes things hard and my dad is no support at all..
Are you saying that you think he gave you alcohol etc....?

You're right it is bad - you can get addicted too! I know your trying to be careful, i think you realise you can get addicted and have addtional health problems... but why don't you try calling a friend, just a general chat to divert your emotions! Do exercise - also generally as that in the long and short term boosts your energy and mood Punch a punching bag or cusion.. write in a diary.. dance... art.. come on the thread and talk about how your feeling - alway here to listen

Hope you're okay?
Take care!