(Original post by i-sure-hope-so)
I'm so sorry you seem to have such low self esteem right now and that you are feeling this way about your body.
I hope that as you grow, you begin to value yourself more.
I love this quote: Everybody is beautiful; Every body is beautiful. After I did a lot of life drawing, I saw this was true. There really is beauty to every human form.
You wanna know something, there are a lot of women outh there who don't think much of themselves. Every woman has something pretty about her - even it is just her smile. Sad thing is some just don't recognise it. Don't let this happen to you. Realise you are more than just what meets the eye. If yoiu want a good example look at Adele -gorgeous and talented.
Your true friends won't care what you look like (and from the sounds of it, it seems they don't!
) ; and anyone worth your time won't pre-judge you for your looks.
However, if you think you are so large that it is truly effecting you - if you are getting overweight in an unhealthy way or becoming truly unhappy, there are things you should do about this. No problem is unsolvable. Seek medical help/ support from those close to you? PM if you want to talk.
P.S. We are all get scared we won't find someone who truly loves us regardless how 'normal' our body size is. Trust me. <3
Once again, I hope you begin to have the confidence you deserve <3