[Valentas]

Hello,

I am completely lost between choices. I always felt that i will definitely study biochemistry in the UK, however, I found computer programming recently which makes me feel a lot better. Also, I have an option to embark on medicine course in my country but I just cannot foresee myself being a doctor. I am extremely terrified to come to the UK for studies and commit. What if I won't like the course? What if I will become bored? I'll have huge debt under my neck...People, what would you do if everything you've planned would fall apart completely? All the work I have done, all excellent grades means nothing to me now because I am afraid. I started to analyze myself for any purpose and cannot find one anymore. I know that if I am not in love with medicine, I will fail horribly because it will devour all the time. I am afraid of coming to the UK because I had some lab experience and did not feel like I could work there for a lot of time. What's worst, without a Masters or PhD, which requires even bigger commitment , I would not be able to achieve anything. My whole life had been ****ed up. Do you have any advices? I am just unable to choose because of all new stuff I find to learn and from which I become bored quite fast. Embarking on ant degree would be suicide...

[Zedd]

Sounds like an existential crisis. I think you need to perhaps consider taking a year out, relax a little, and give yourself more time to come to a conclusion about what you want to do.

How old are you? Where are you from?

[Valentas]

I am 19 years old person who had always thought about becoming a scientist...but highly doubt this now. I became interested in business aspect of science and truly crave to be my own boss. I am from Lithuania. I have a place for free studies on medicine course. And have a place for biochemistry studies in the UK at the university of Sheffield. I am afraid to study medicine not because of workload or sleepless nights(I sleep 5 hours anyway) but because I have doubts. You cannot commit and succeed with doubts...my main reasons to do medicine: a little desire to study alternative medicine after m.d. , and a hope to study for phd in human immunology. Also job security of course. I have little interest in money because I don't need all the high tech stuff and I grew in simplicity. As a child, I devoured encyclopedias but I became shy
and reserved person. Thus I am afraid to deal with people who are in pain or in fear as a doctor. But I would have to deal with people anyway even as a scientist...however, I did not prefer aspect of lab work a lot and this made me to recinsider what I crave. I found that I wish to work for humanity, both scientist and doctor satisfy this requirment but I am afraid to find out that I may not be suitable for scientist...and debt after all. Also if I cannot commit for bsc, how am I To cope with phd? As a doctor I could be my own boss while scientist is always under grants and supervision. And I loathe to work for others dreams when I could do this on my own...just some thoughts.

[cimperator]

Valentas first came down and take a long breath relax and don't overload your mind you are young, making the right decision is not easy but be strong and confident because whatever you want to do I know you can do it though I don't know you try to make a list of things you like from both works compare the cost of U.K against the free course think that as a Dr you can get to be a scientist later on, computer science is not as interesting you think go more on an information technology course fix objectives and follow them don't be anxious PHDs and masters don't think about it now but later on if u need help send me a PM and get the positive attitude
Regards

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[Valentas]

I am seriously considering taking a gap year... I cannot think of what I truly crave to do with my life. But that year must be meaningful and useful. How am I to organize myself such a year? I have no idea. Any help?

[Coke Or Pepsi]

I agree with Zedd - I reckon you should just take a year out and really think about what you want to do. It'll be expensive for you to study here, and there is hence no point in just committing half-heartedly. If you take a gap year, you can really analyse what you think is best for you and prevent yourself from deciding something that you will perhaps later regret. All the best, and try and not get too over-stressed. You will end up doing the right thing