[zuqqer]

Why doesn't my stupid brain have a normal amount of those stupid happy chemicals in it? I haven't taken them in about two weeks (Not on purpose) and I feel crap. What is wrong with me? I hate this.

[bullettheory]

(Original post by zuqqer)
Why doesn't my stupid brain have a normal amount of those stupid happy chemicals in it? I haven't taken them in about two weeks (Not on purpose) and I feel crap. What is wrong with me? I hate this.

I know it sucks having to take pills, but if they make you feel better, then maybe it is best to keep on them (unless you are giving you terrible side effects, in which case maybe you should change). How come you haven't been taking them? Depression is an illness, when people are ill they usually have to take medication, so this is no different. Hang on in there, things will get better.

[Sabertooth]

Why'd you stop your's?

I feel the same, sometimes I actually cry as I feel so pathetic about taking pills all the time.

[superwolf]

(Original post by zuqqer)
Why doesn't my stupid brain have a normal amount of those stupid happy chemicals in it? I haven't taken them in about two weeks (Not on purpose) and I feel crap. What is wrong with me? I hate this.

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Why'd you stop your's?

I feel the same, sometimes I actually cry as I feel so pathetic about taking pills all the time.

There is nothing stupid or pathetic about having to take medication, whether it's for a mental illness or a physical one. If the drugs work then they work and it's worth taking them. I know it's a pain in the arse sometimes (I'm currently attempting to fix a fairly big **** up either my GP surgery or pharmacy made, which means that after a lot of waiting around and phone calls yesterday and today I now have a total of two days' worth of pills, rather than the month's worth I was expecting ), but if it overall improves your quality of life then to be honest I think the best attitude is to just accept it, try and sort out side-effects if appropriate, and basically just get on with things.

[BLTJimbo]

Instead of feeling bad that you need pills to feel normal, you could try looking at it from the perspective that pills give you the opportunity to be normal. The paraplegic who's never walked would love to be able to take a pill and walk like a normal person. It's all about perspective, yes you feel bad compared to someone who you don't think needs pills. But in fact there is always someone who is worse off, and nearly always that person you think is normal/perfect actually has similar problems. You could feel jealous that some hot girl doesn't have acne and you do, but in fact she spends half an hour in the morning and evening meticulously washing her face with face scrubs to avoid said acne, that you don't see. You should think there's always someone worse off, and that everyone has there own problems wether or not you see them. That's how I see it anyway.

[ViceVersa]

Taking medication is just one of the ways of treating mental depression. Have you tried talking to your doctor about any other sort of treatment, such as CBT or Psychotherapy? I know you feel they're not working and that you still feel bad, but make sure you don't stop taking them without consulting with your doctor first. I hope you feel better soon

[Gallabay]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
Why'd you stop your's?

I feel the same, sometimes I actually cry as I feel so pathetic about taking pills all the time.

(Original post by zuqqer)
Why doesn't my stupid brain have a normal amount of those stupid happy chemicals in it? I haven't taken them in about two weeks (Not on purpose) and I feel crap. What is wrong with me? I hate this.

I completely understand, it took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I was not only medicated, but fairly heavily medicated. I try and see it as a trade off - I take the pills, which I hate, in order to be able to get out of bed in the morning and function almost normally. Doesnt stop me hating it though. Having said that, I missed a day by forgetting to take them before I went out to do Uni work and being so tired when I got back that I forgot again - next three days I felt awful, so. yeh. A necessary evil

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by Gallabay)
I completely understand, it took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I was not only medicated, but fairly heavily medicated. I try and see it as a trade off - I take the pills, which I hate, in order to be able to get out of bed in the morning and function almost normally. Doesnt stop me hating it though. Having said that, I missed a day by forgetting to take them before I went out to do Uni work and being so tired when I got back that I forgot again - next three days I felt awful, so. yeh. A necessary evil

I'm glad to hear they work for you I think it's a lot easier to come to terms with if you get very good results from taking the drugs. Though I still think if you're taking medication every day it can still be annoying.

Personally, I still get a lot of symptoms despite being on quite a few different medications so not only do I have the upsetting task of taking them twice a day but I don't even come out normal when I do (although, granted, I do manage life a lot better on them) which is quite demotivating.

[Gallabay]

(Original post by Sabertooth)
I'm glad to hear they work for you I think it's a lot easier to come to terms with if you get very good results from taking the drugs. Though I still think if you're taking medication every day it can still be annoying.

Personally, I still get a lot of symptoms despite being on quite a few different medications so not only do I have the upsetting task of taking them twice a day but I don't even come out normal when I do (although, granted, I do manage life a lot better on them) which is quite demotivating.

I didnt get results for a very long time, I was started off on the lowest dose and its only on the highest that Im getting through. Normal is still a ways off though unfortunately.

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by Gallabay)
I didnt get results for a very long time, I was started off on the lowest dose and its only on the highest that Im getting through. Normal is still a ways off though unfortunately.

Ah, that sucks. Higher dose is normally associated with more side effects = definitely not fun.

My psychiatrist has been slowly increasing my dose so who knows perhaps eventually it will work completely.

[zuqqer]

I forget to take them, and after about a week I'm crying because someone didn't smile back at me. I hate being so dependent on something so small to feel normal. I should tick off everyday in my calendar or something, I don't know why it's so hard. Time to buy a pill box? Ha

[Sabertooth]

(Original post by zuqqer)
I forget to take them, and after about a week I'm crying because someone didn't smile back at me. I hate being so dependent on something so small to feel normal. I should tick off everyday in my calendar or something, I don't know why it's so hard. Time to buy a pill box? Ha

Yeah ticking it off on a calendar is effective for telling if you've taken it, but I had the problem of forgetting to look at the calendar and therefore forgetting to take the drug. You can download and print calendars off the internet for free too.

Another thing that might help is getting into a routine then you don't forget. For example I always take morning meds with my morning coffee and evening meds just before I brush my teeth. If you always match taking meds with an activity you do everyday you won't forget.

[Oh I Really Don't Care]

If they suceed then don't stop .. the battle shouldn't be thinking of "normal" but simply minimizing the bad thoughts you have at the moment. It is hard to look back to a point you aren't depressed (I would go as far to say impossible during it) to remember what normal" feels like.

Normal has it's baggages, just the baggage is a bit less sinister!

Best of luck!