[Coffeegirl]

I have come to realise that some people are so ungrateful that its quite saddening!

I am today a stronger and much better person that I was few years a go. Having suffered and still suffering emotional and sometimes physical abuse at the hands of my father. Having a controlled, restricted childhood riddled with fear all times. My mother having to cope through a loveless, emotionally abusive relationship. Our entire family runs like this till today. No toys, presents, clothes or shoes or anything. Every year having to watch others buy new things and our father telling us - no- has been horrible but I have come out to be a better person.

And I am so SO grateful to God that I have been given a father- there are many in this world without- even though he does control us and be horrible.

I am grateful because I have a roof over my head provided by my father, I am grateful because I have food in my stomach- I am grateful that I had a chance at education even though now I'm just supposed to stay at home and cook.

I sometimes complain to God- how ugly have to you made me or why am I stuck in such a situation? But you know what, I am grateful because I have eyes I can see with, nose I can smell with, ears to hear with. There are many unfortunate people in the world that don't have even that and are more thankful than me.

So what if the only happiness I have is when my father is out of the house- so what if we have no clothes, so what if we are deprived of further education and careers.

And then there are the people that say Islam oppresses women - Islam is voilent and abusive.-- how do I make these people understand that no..its the culture behind it--I am someone who lives in such a house which is oppressed and violent but I have come out of it a better person who has understood just how beautiful my religion is. I KNOW that culture twists people's, especially men's brain so much that they think they are the king of the world when its not like that. How can I make people understand that it is you people who are abusing and misunderstanding my religion like that which has no significance to the way we have been treated.

I am someone who has been through it all- self harm, depression, anxiety , suicide and I came out believing in myself more than ever before. I love who I am today.

I've been holding onto all this for years and years, just needed to let it out. Sorry for the long post

[0Muzzles0]

This was refreshing to read
Good on you

[g_star_raw_1989]

Good on you for realising how unfair the situation you're in is unacceptable and unfair. Now, you should act on it and get yourself out of it and give yourself the best opportunity to do what you want to do.

[GPH92]

well it's good youre satisfied with your life.

[Ayesha1234]

The parts I read were quite depressing I hope things get better for you, but good on you for achieving something positive out of your hardship

[Coffeegirl]

Thank you for supporting me everyone, its made the journey even more fab :')

[sotrulybeautiful]

You shouldn't just accept the things that are happening. Sure you are lucky that you are heaalthy, you have shelter and food but these are basic rights not a luxury or anything extra that your parents are doing. All kids deserve that. That's what parents are for.

I am happy that you are happy in your current situation. Are you really happy though? Do you feel fulfilled and in control of your life? Do you look forward to every day with enthusiasm and vigor or is every day just a repeat of the past. Is it really worth having a father who is physically and emotionally abusive..think of the impact it could have on your mental state. how you would behave in future relationships. Do you want to have real love or a loveless marriage? I suggest if you are at uni that you seek some counselling and support for what has happened. It can be quite useful.