(Original post by Anonymous)
I hate my life. I'm totally fed up now and literally have nothing to live for. I have no prospects, I'm clearly not worth employing, I have no friends, no social life, nothing. I have a rubbish part time job that I hate and it doesn't even cover my bills. I'm getting in debt and can see no way out. I'm not eligible for any kind of support because I'm a grad. I apply for apprenticeships and get turned away cos I'm a grad. I get turned away from other rubbish paid but full time jobs, I get turned away cos I'm a grad. I apply for grad jobs, I get turned away because I'm type-cast into the rubbish job that I'm doing now. I'm clearly too ugly to find a partner, not that I have anything to offer to a potential partner as I have NOTHING. Even cousins aren't interested in me either so I don't have anyone to have a night out with. Everyone's getting on with their lives and no one gives a crap about me. I always make an effort but its never reciprocated. Not that I count facebook as real life, but even on their, I'll always make an effort to say happy birthday to people, and no-one bothers to wish me the same, even though facebook tells them! I see no way out of my situation. I've prayed to god, the devil, the universe, anything that's out there for help. Of course, nothing happens. I'm depressed, lonely, tired of life and just want to rest. If I do ever manage to make a friend, they turn out to be false, I get used and then they drift away. Basically I can't see any point to my existence. Even at work, colleagues are always complaining about me as I'm not as sharp as them and appear miserable...but I am miserable and I can't help it. My jobs on its last legs and once thats gone thats it. I feel like just putting an end to it all now as i can't physically or mentally carry on. I'm so bored and tired that when Im not at work I'll just stay in bed as there is nothing at all to get up for. I'm bored of library books and reading stuff on the net now, I keep just breaking down and wanting the world to end. Even writing this i've started to cry and i cant help it. I just want to sleep forever I think.