[Anonymous]

I hate my life. I'm totally fed up now and literally have nothing to live for. I have no prospects, I'm clearly not worth employing, I have no friends, no social life, nothing. I have a rubbish part time job that I hate and it doesn't even cover my bills. I'm getting in debt and can see no way out. I'm not eligible for any kind of support because I'm a grad. I apply for apprenticeships and get turned away cos I'm a grad. I get turned away from other rubbish paid but full time jobs, I get turned away cos I'm a grad. I apply for grad jobs, I get turned away because I'm type-cast into the rubbish job that I'm doing now. I'm clearly too ugly to find a partner, not that I have anything to offer to a potential partner as I have NOTHING. Even cousins aren't interested in me either so I don't have anyone to have a night out with. Everyone's getting on with their lives and no one gives a crap about me. I always make an effort but its never reciprocated. Not that I count facebook as real life, but even on their, I'll always make an effort to say happy birthday to people, and no-one bothers to wish me the same, even though facebook tells them! I see no way out of my situation. I've prayed to god, the devil, the universe, anything that's out there for help. Of course, nothing happens. I'm depressed, lonely, tired of life and just want to rest. If I do ever manage to make a friend, they turn out to be false, I get used and then they drift away. Basically I can't see any point to my existence. Even at work, colleagues are always complaining about me as I'm not as sharp as them and appear miserable...but I am miserable and I can't help it. My jobs on its last legs and once thats gone thats it. I feel like just putting an end to it all now as i can't physically or mentally carry on. I'm so bored and tired that when Im not at work I'll just stay in bed as there is nothing at all to get up for. I'm bored of library books and reading stuff on the net now, I keep just breaking down and wanting the world to end. Even writing this i've started to cry and i cant help it. I just want to sleep forever I think.

[nohomo]

Could you move back in with your parents to save money?

[Anonymous]

Why do people always assume that moving back home to the parents is an option.

[advent2]

(Original post by Anonymous)
I hate my life. I'm totally fed up now and literally have nothing to live for. I have no prospects, I'm clearly not worth employing, I have no friends, no social life, nothing. I have a rubbish part time job that I hate and it doesn't even cover my bills. I'm getting in debt and can see no way out. I'm not eligible for any kind of support because I'm a grad. I apply for apprenticeships and get turned away cos I'm a grad. I get turned away from other rubbish paid but full time jobs, I get turned away cos I'm a grad. I apply for grad jobs, I get turned away because I'm type-cast into the rubbish job that I'm doing now. I'm clearly too ugly to find a partner, not that I have anything to offer to a potential partner as I have NOTHING. Even cousins aren't interested in me either so I don't have anyone to have a night out with. Everyone's getting on with their lives and no one gives a crap about me. I always make an effort but its never reciprocated. Not that I count facebook as real life, but even on their, I'll always make an effort to say happy birthday to people, and no-one bothers to wish me the same, even though facebook tells them! I see no way out of my situation. I've prayed to god, the devil, the universe, anything that's out there for help. Of course, nothing happens. I'm depressed, lonely, tired of life and just want to rest. If I do ever manage to make a friend, they turn out to be false, I get used and then they drift away. Basically I can't see any point to my existence. Even at work, colleagues are always complaining about me as I'm not as sharp as them and appear miserable...but I am miserable and I can't help it. My jobs on its last legs and once thats gone thats it. I feel like just putting an end to it all now as i can't physically or mentally carry on. I'm so bored and tired that when Im not at work I'll just stay in bed as there is nothing at all to get up for. I'm bored of library books and reading stuff on the net now, I keep just breaking down and wanting the world to end. Even writing this i've started to cry and i cant help it. I just want to sleep forever I think.

How long have you felt like this for? have you been to your GP about it or confided in anyone?

I went to the doctors recently after suffering from depression for years. I had always avoided it as I didn't want to be drugged up. I was put on medication for a couple of weeks and then taken off it as my depression 'improved'. It wasn't anything to do with the medication, I just had a lot going on in my life at that time to be positive about.

That's not to say that medication won't benefit you though, apparently it takes longer than two weeks for the pills to work anyway, so I've been told. I was also offered counselling so that might be another option for you.

It seems like you are at rock bottom at the moment. The good news is that things can't exactly get any worse.

If you're getting into debt, I would recommend booking an appointment at your local Citizens Advice Bureau. It's a free service and they can help you to manage your finances better. There are also various Trust funds that you may be able to apply to for assistance, depending upon what your debts are. I work as a debt advisor at CAB so if you have any queries, I may be able to answer them on here.

Friends can be gained and jobs can be changed. There are lots of practical solutions to the problems in your life, dealing with your debts is a prime example but you need to work on your mental health first because if you don't get that sorted, it's going to be an uphill battle changing everything else.

Get yourself booked in with your GP as soon as possible and get an appointment at CAB. It sounds like you may have severe depression based on your suicidal thoughts and oversleeping therefore your GP may sign you off on the sick or you could finish work and claim Employment and Support Allowance which is a benefit paid to those unable to work due to ill health or disability. If you get ESA, you wil also get some Housing and Council Tax Benefit.

The Citizens Advice Bureau can provide benefits advice as well so they could calculate whether or not you would be better off working or going on the sick. If you hate your job as much as you say you do and if it's only a part time one, you may be better off on benefits at least until you can get your head sorted.

[Anonymous]

i feel exactly the same. i should have done something about it years ago. nothing ever changes

[SouthSide89]

Damn mate, I feel for you, I really do.
Is there anything your good at or have a passion for?
I know somebody who had nothing apart from their passion for music, and making a difference to peoples lives through their music. They really belived in this and from nothing, ended up getting on really well in life.
This could be an option mabey?
I really hope you get on ok, upset me reading that, I cant even imagine how you feel.

-Linden

[Trigger]

(Original post by Anonymous)
Why do people always assume that moving back home to the parents is an option.

Well thats rude! Someone is trying to help and they get that level of aggression back shows you need too work on your people skills, then perhaps you might be able to come across better at interview and in social situations.