Hi I recently started an Economics degree at UCL.
However, all the way from applying for it in the first place, I was having doubts about everything, and was torn between Economics and Physics (/NatSci). Last year, this indecision caused me to miss the Oxbridge deadline and led me to not send off my application until Jan 15th.
I find both interesting (and also sometimes horrifically boring!) In ways I find aspects of Physics more interesting, but Economics is so much more applicable to real life and how societies work that I felt it would maybe be a better option.
So leading up to starting, I was still having doubts and thinking about a gap year, as a chance to do something different and get my head straight before uni. On the 24th, they gave me until the 12th (today) before I had to enrol and fully commit myself. I was trying to decide the whole time and still was getting nowhere, and today when it got to the final time, I felt like maybe I could do with the gap year to do something else. I went with the intention of telling them this and when I arrived at the office it had closed 4 minutes earlier and they were stopping dealing with any enrolments so even if at that point I wanted to enrol I wouldn't have been able to. The guy there said that if I was wanting to enrol my only option would be to go and plead my case on Monday morning.
Now I feel like I really could have made a wrong decision though. I'm worried that I could have a really bad year and that it will be pointless and that all this is simply due to my own inability to make decisions. I still don't feel any more sure about which course I would prefer and all the wonderful plans I had for my gap year seem to not be possible due to various complications.
I wanted to travel, but on a budget it seemed the way to do that was to work abroad, but now everything I look at which once seemed like a really good idea is now seeming to look not so good.
I can see myself just working here all year and I am sort of in the process of sorting out something which will lead me to do a boring job here for at least a few months. I feel like by doing this I will have an awful time because all my mates are off at uni and im stuck at home with my family, who i hate living with when im not boarding anyway.
Sorry for the long post im just trying to get what im feeling into some coherent form