I don't really know how to put this into words... but I'll try my best to make it clear enough!
There was this guy I liked and liked me back about a year ago, and now I've met someone new who I like and likes me back as well. Even though these two times I liked them and viceversa, I've never been in a relationship and I swear I've no idea why. These two guys wanted a serious relationship and hell, I wanted too because, well, that's usually what you want when you like someone, right? but then I always start having doubts, not doubts about them but about me. Why do I suddenly feel uneasy? I don't really know how to express the way I feel like... it's not that I am afraid of getting hurt (I've seen many threads about that, so I just want to clarify), I just suddenly... feel uncomfortable, even though I still like them, a lot.
I also want to point out that I didn't go further than kissing with them because the time I go further I want it to be with my boyfriend, so is not something about wanting to "be free" and being able to have one night stands with random guys and things like that, I'm actually a romantic and I take sex and relationships seriously.
I really, really want to get rid of this unconfortable/uneasy feeling when I think about having a relationship, because back then I liked the guy and right now I like this guy very much as well, but I just feel... well, the way I feel, and is driving me mad! I don't want to say "yes" feeling like this and then say "no" a few days later, you know, it's not fair for him and I don't want to say yes just to try, I feel that would be something like "playing" with him, and as I said, is not good or fair.
Do you know what the heck is wrong with me or have you ever felt this way?