I grew up without a Mother from age 6, became completely self dependent, found secondary mother figures in my friend's households and they all seemed to loved me, I think I had to learn to be extra charming, was always more on the same level as adults due to been independent my self but as a child, spent most of my time with other family's as there was no family life of any kind at my own home, I grew up really well, really strong, loving, charismatic, everyone in school loved me not just popular, when I was 15 depression set in, I didn't know what the hell it was at first, just got the life sucked out of me and gradually lost every shred of self confidence that had previously always brought me huge success , my whole life fell apart, I ended up being completely alone and have remained so to this day 16 year's later still stuck in depression, I write this lying in bed depressed on a Saturday cause I have no social connections of any kind, no emotional tie's or attachment's to anyone, have never been in a relationship despite women seeming to find me desirable.
I had had the world at my feet due to the gene's I was born with ( Nature ) but my life completely fell apart due to the complete lack of ( Nurture ), think when I reached 15 I could no longer spend time in other family's house's, really wanted a Mom at this stage, mother's love etc, also when she did pass no one ever gave me the chance to grieve, the only time it would come out was when I was in public and someone would say " sorry to hear about your Mom " and the tear's would well up so I had to push it all back down as much as I could to avoid the embarrassment of breaking down in tears in a public.
I'm heading for 32, Iv been stuck in unresolved grieve for the past 16 year's, really bad depression, I think Iv made a lot of progress recently but only because Iv ran out of time and Iv been forced to get myself better, no one ever bothered to reach out to help while it was completely obvious I needed help, all I ever wanted was someone to sit down with me to finally have the one to one that I always wanted so I could finally grieve
Out of everyone I grew up with in my social hemisphere I was always at the top, I was meant to be something big in life and this isn't just me being big headed this is how other people who know me see me.
I see plenty of people of people I went to school with who really didn't have much going for them but they had mother's and came from loving nurturing home's so they turned out fine careers marriage etc and I'm left completely screwed, they had a mother who actually raised them and were behind them all the way.