Welcome to the dark and twisty mind of well, me. :/

So I'm 20, been on dates with guys.... but before things get really serious, I always end up rejecting them. I don't know why I do it but when I learn certain things about the guys I've been dating (ie, habits like drug abuse, conflicting views toward certain topics I'm particularly passionate about, skewed values, past relationships, or just these small/insignificant things they do that really irk me), I usually call it quits. This has happened 4 times in the past 2 years. I'd like to think I am quite open - minded and tolerant when it comes to friendships but I just can't handle most people at a more intimate level. I also hate the idea of being someone's someone and am repulsed by the term "you are mine". Ahem. Excuse me? How about, erm, NO? I'm not your pencil sharpener or your couch cushion.

I feel like I've turned into this angry, little hedgehog with this really annoyed view towards the world.

To top that, I'm also rather socially retarded, difficult to get to know. If I'm to count the number of people I'd really call my true friends, my count wouldn't even go past 4. At the same time, I'm terrified of being alone. I feel the desperate need to fill this... void every time I find it creeping up on me.... Ah.

Anyone care to shed light on this? Should I stop being an annoying prick and settle or am I just dating all the wrong guys?

So I'm 20, been on dates with guys.... but before things get really serious, I always end up rejecting them. I don't know why I do it but when I learn certain things about the guys I've been dating (ie, habits like drug abuse, conflicting views toward certain topics I'm particularly passionate about, skewed values, past relationships, or just these small/insignificant things they do that really irk me), I usually call it quits. This has happened 4 times in the past 2 years. I'd like to think I am quite open - minded and tolerant when it comes to friendships but I just can't handle most people at a more intimate level. I also hate the idea of being someone's someone and am repulsed by the term "you are mine". Ahem. Excuse me? How about, erm, NO? I'm not your pencil sharpener or your couch cushion.

I feel like I've turned into this angry, little hedgehog with this really annoyed view towards the world.

To top that, I'm also rather socially retarded, difficult to get to know. If I'm to count the number of people I'd really call my true friends, my count wouldn't even go past 4. At the same time, I'm terrified of being alone. I feel the desperate need to fill this... void every time I find it creeping up on me.... Ah.

Anyone care to shed light on this? Should I stop being an annoying prick and settle or am I just dating all the wrong guys?