I have been battling depression for a number of years now, but in the last six months I have plummeted to an all time low. In the last 2 weeks I've barely left my bed, can't sleep for crying and am just generally falling behind on everything.
I cheered up a little on Monday, had plenty of sleep and got ready to go on a night out, the first time I've been out in well over a month. I was with my boyfriend, the only person who knows the extent of what I'm dealing with, and is 100% my safety net. I feel comfortable around him and when I'm with him.
We started to predrink at one of his friends - I don't know the group that well, but they are very welcoming and lovely to me. He left the room for a bit to visit a friend in the neighbouring flat. I was sat at the table and all of a sudden I wanted to cry, I had tears in my eyes and I just wanted to get up and run out the room. I felt panicky and the noise of conversation around me was getting louder and louder, and I felt so alone.
I suffer from normal stress of university, but have never felt anxiety like this. Could I be developing social anxiety? Does this sound like it, or was I just having a drop in my mood level?
I would appreciate any help!