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Is this depression?

I've been ill with Chronic Fatigue for the past two years so I've not been able to do anything I enjoy. I've managed a little travelling and one party but they left me bedridden for days/weeks. I've been really frustrated for the past year because the doctors can't help and I've realised CF is long-term. My illness has changed my higher education plans (not necessarily for the worst) and I feel like my life is revolving around it. My confidence has completely dropped in the past couple months and I feel like a shell of myself because being my usual energetic, extroverted me is exhausting with CF. In the past couple weeks I've found myself just breaking down crying for no reason, sitting alone in pity and just feeling **** about myself.
My illness has led to some weight gain and although I'm still a healthy weight, I hate my body. I can't stand the way I look but I also can't change it. Even light exercise like stretching leaved me panting and exhausted and my diet is already as healthy as possible.
None of my friends understand and a lot of them are really harsh about it all, some of them genuinely laughing at my illness and telling me to just go to sleep earlier and stop complaining even though my illness is classed as a ****ing disability. How much more serious can you get?! I've lost some friends through this and the ones that have stuck around are barely there because I don't have the energy to socialise.
My dad is emotionally abusive to everyone in my family but completely blind to it himself. I'm fed up of the stress it's causing me but nobody's listening about it.
I'm really worried my uni life (if I even get there) is going to be boring and slow because of my health. My school-life has been **** due to a lot of issues through the years so I just want to restart but I don't want to restart with this illness controlling me.
I've been feeling really down for a couple months now but it's gone from being 20% of the time to around 70-80% of the time.

I just don't know what to do because I don't have any friends or family to turn to right now.
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Huskaris
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I would go and see a doctor if I were you.


**Mods note that what I am about to say is genuinely an attempt to help someone not a pisstake*

I don't mean to be rude but TSR is the last place you want to be if you think you might have mental health issues, because it is treated by many as a sort of fashion accessory. If you feel that you genuinely might have these issues, get yourself diagnosed by the relevant medical professionals and seek professional help.

I would urge you to stay away from TSR because it will put you on a downward spiral. Some of the members on here end up finding that their "depression" is the only thing that gets them attention/friends.

You don't want this.

Talk to a doctor :smile:
Definitely see your GP if you have concerns. All the best.

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