I'd love to sit with you Riku and go through a list of threads you've created and put them in to two columns: Stuff that actually matters and stuff only you think about.
90%+ would end up in the latter, and hopefully you'd go away from that meeting knowing that actually, all you have to do is make yourself happy by doing what makes you happy, and that the rest of the world will either like you for it or **** off out of your life.