Hey, I'm sorry if this is a bit rambling, my emotions are all over the place.
So my boyfriend and I have been together a while. It took him a while to say he loved me initially (a good two or three months after I knew I loved him).
Anyway, lately things have been going really well (there was a rough patch about two months ago). Especially this past week or two, everything has been amazing.
But then the other night, we were about to go to sleep (after spending a fun evening with some friends) and I curled up to him and said 'I love you' - as we usually do before going to bed. He asked 'really?' and I said 'of course silly' and then I added in a joking tone 'why? don't you love me anymore?'
He said 'no, I don't think I do'.
I was heartbroken. I turned over so he wouldn't see me cry. He then said 'I'm sorry, I just wanted to be honest and not lie to you'. I decided I should probably get up and go home instead of stay the rest of the night at his.
As I get up and get dressed he says the worst line ever - 'but I still care about you'. Ugh.
Anyway, I left and went back to mine that night. And I haven't heard from him since.
I'm so heartbroken. I love him more than anything but obviously I know that if he doesn't love me anymore there is nothing I can do to change that and I guess it means we're over.
I just don't know how to cope. This is so upsetting and it's coincided with me having a big issue with my health at the moment and my dissertation deadline coming up. I just don't know what to do.