Troubled memories

I'm sorry to hear that you've been through all this trouble. It is not so strange to still want them back because you really liked the feeling of being liked and you want that back. You have to keep reminding yourself that in this situation that was a really false feeling because this person was deceitful and showed no regard for your feelings. Your self esteem is probably quite low for you to want him back. There are guys out there who would respect you and not manipulate you, and in a relationship with them you wouldn't get the negative feelings and worries all the time that you got in your previous relationship. Wouldn't that be so much better? You can have that if you wait for the right person. Don't settle for someone like your ex and get hurt again. If I were you I would break contact with the ex completely. He will have no positive effect on your life no matter whether you are friends or in a relationship, and he doesn't care about your feelings or what you're going through.

Thank you so much, I really appreciate that, You have really helped me today! God bless