[h="1"]Really embarrassed?[/h]
i was really drunk and accidental started blurting stuff out , i think i told some people that i was with that i dont even know that well that i hadn't had sex yet
and i think i told them that i was wanted to with this guy we know (and was making out with the last time i was drunk) but didn't want him to realise that i was inexperienced or something, then i said that i had only kissed one guy before him and then for some reason said that i hadn't kissed that guy before him properly! which wasnt even right (and sounds even worse cos im 19)
the truth is i had kissed the person i mentioned before properly but as it lasted about 4/5 seconds and i think in my drunken state cos i wouldnt class this as making out i said it didnt count as "properly" .
iv kissed someone else before but i was way to drunk to remember it (but my friend told me) so i didn't bother counting this either , iv also done everything up to oral with guys but i didn't bother mentioning this
so i have 1 made my self sound more inexperienced than i actually am
2 i think i made out like i want to sleep with this guy that we know im planning on it or something! when im not (and they might think i like him now)
3 i might have told them i was feeling sexualy frustrated
i feel like i want to kill myself cos its stuff that i really really wouldnt want to tell people and i made it all sound way more exagerated than it really is and imade myself sound a lot less sexualy inexperienced than i am and im worried its going to get round to other people and its all so awkward and embarrassing
i talk so much crap when im drunk half the time i never say what im trying to
how do i fix this , i want to tell them how it really is but i cant really bring it up during the day