Basically, I have clinical depression so having the motivation to study can be very hard despite being so ambitious. This mens when I do study so much, I put a lot of hope and pressure on myself to getting the right grade. So when I worked extremely hard in my English Literature coursework for A2, and received a C due to my sentence structure being problematic just completely destroyed my self esteem. Now I'm trying to revise for an English Literature exam, as I want to do it in university, but I just have little voices in my head saying 'you won't get into uni, there's no point trying' or 'your essay probably won't make any sense'. I was originally going to study just drama at uni, but because I love studying english literature so much as well, like I have an ultimate passion for it, I'm just lacking skills on writing essays. So I just want to know, basically how do I just build up my confidence not based on grades. Apologies if that didn't make sense aha, thank you.