I was 17 & got with a guy who was 25 and had a tough time but didn't realise until after. In relationships I've always waited months before having sex I like to get to know the person but the first time I was at his I was homeless after problems with my mum, when I cried he told me everything would be ok and made me feel safe then when his mum went up to bed and said I could sleep on their sofa he took my clothes off and climbed on top of me even though I said no. On other occasions he'd pull my head back or put his hands tight over my mouth and have sex with me. He took control of my facebook account and I wasn't allowed to wear anything he deemed short, I had to delete male friends and stop talking to them and stop seeing some of my even female friends. Literally all my time was spent on him and he argued with my mum and said things to me about her which drove a wedge even bigger between us so I moved in with my uncle. My boyfriend wanted me to get pregnant and when it didn't happen blamed it on me so I felt really rubbish, He stopped wanting to see me or talk to me and when I went to his for New Year he left all night to go to his friends to take cocaine and didn't come back till the late hours of the next morning, he'd tell me not to talk to him and then I found out he'd been cheating on me for 4 months.
I'm now starting to get my life back together, moved bck in with my mum but after this relationship I seem to be putting up a wall between me and others, I feel like I can't get into a relationship as I'm too afraid of it happening again and I feel scared of men