So I'm 16 and female, and whilst all my friends are getting into relationships I feel like the odd one out. Why? Because I get no sexual pleasure.
I cannot masturbate. I get 0 pleasure from either penetration or clitoral massage. I feel like a broken human being. It gives me about as much pleasure as rubbing my ankle and the only thing that happens hwen I try is I need to pee. In fact, if I keep going, even after I've been to the toilet I wet myself. Like full on wet myself.
Also, my periods are really irregular and come about once every 6 months, having only started when I was about 14 and a half. Otherwise in terms of puberty I have relatively large breasts (38C), though still growing and have a lot of pubic hair, though my Dad has no armpit hair and I have inherited this.
When I have sexual fantasies, I can only really picture sort of making out or me giving oral, I cant really imagine anything being done to me as I find no pleasure from it.I do try to imagine sex though but I cannot really relate pleasure to the images and can only really imagine it in first person.
Maybe I'm asexual as I am romantically attracted to people but I don't even really know what sexual attraction is. About as far as I go with sexual fantasy is someone rubbing cold hands along my breasts which does turn me on. I have gotten wet before but only in the morning after dreaming.
What's wrong with me and how can I achieve orgasm/some form of pleasure from masturbation. I'm terrified that I'm never going to be able to have a normal relationship. In fact I sometimes cry myself to sleep in fear.