I don't know where exactly this belongs, but I'm pretty sure it's to do with my mental welfare so I'll put it here.<br><br>There is a problem with me and foreign things. Obviously I'm fine with foreign people, but even thinking about foreign places makes me feel weird or uncomfortable.<br><br>I'm going on holiday with my family to Cyprus, and I am absolutely dreading it. Just thinking about the design of their buildings, the types of plants they have and the weather there just makes me feel so <em>uncomfortable. </em>I don't want to ruin the holiday, but it's <em>two weeks </em>long and I genuinely don't know if I'll last the entire time. <br>I've found that it's not even foreign places, sometimes just certain situations in my own country make me feel the same way - and when I say certain, I mean really, really specific things. Like yellow bricks, housing estates, streetlamps, and gardens. It kinda ruins things sometimes, because I just cannot feel comfortable when presented with these things. And in the build up towards the holiday, I have actually been having nightmares about being abroad, and I feel a bit scared when thinking about when I am actually going to be in another country.<br><br>I suppose it could be that I've grown accustomed to certain conditions - clouds, rain, and a specific city environment...But then, I've been on holiday to Spain, Italy, France, Poland, etc when I was younger, and this feeling has only been getting more serious since then. <br><br>I have always gotten homesick when away from home though, not just for my family but for the house itself, I love it so much. So I can't do sleepovers. Could you imagine ever having a party with me? Not super fun.<br><br>It also means it's been a nightmare trying to get a job. I really need the money, I know I do, but everywhere makes me feel too weird except for like two shops which aren't even hiring. It's really embarrassing. My friends are all getting jobs, and I can't explain to them why it's so difficult for me.<br><br>I've looked at Xenophobia, and the one kind sounds about right (The cultural part, definitely not the foreign people part) but I really, REALLY don't want to be Xenophobic. There's so much hate about it, and I don't want to be a part of that just because I get a seriously weird feeling in reaction to certain things. I do want to know if it's an actual thing that other people experience, if not to help people around me to understand then at least to tell myself that I'm not crazy.<br><br>Anyone know what else it could be? Thank you.