This was a
very bad idea.
You should close the account you made, walk away and forget the whole thing.
How old are you? When I was in secondary school I went through more infatuations than I did rolls of toilet paper. I was obsessed with some celebrities, a few female classmates and on 4 ocasions certain teachers. I never went to quite the lengths that you have but this obsession you have is only temporary and will pass. Example: When I was like 16 I was obsessed with Emilie De Raven who was in LOST (tv show) at the time. I would watch all of her films over and over again, I'd spend ages looking through google image searches for good pictures of her (hoping against all odds to find a nude
). I spent a lot of my free time thinking about her/watching her movies, at times it made me feel sick that I knew I'd never even get to meet her let alone anything else.
Then one day I was busy with something else and for that whole day I didn't think much about it. Then that was it, it stopped, I lost interest and moved on. All the obsessive stuff stopped and I started acting pretty normal again.
These things happen to a lot of young people, you're probably sick of hearing the hormone excuse by this point but it's definitely true. Your obsession will pass and you will feel better about the whole thing, it is only a matter of time.
As someone who was once a teenage boy who had steamin' hot maths, psychology and drama teachers, I know exactly why you wanted to see photos
move on though.