I'm just going to say that I've dealt with this a longs time and it's hard to say. I didn't realise the knives he collected were more than army collectibles until he put one in my mouth. He was always weird but I never thought he'd hurt me. He lived in a tiny flat in a dodgy area. One day we were kissing and stuff and we were in underwear. I never slept with him or made him think I wanted it. He pushed me against the bed frame and forced his fingers into me and I said no and cried and screamed but nobody came and it hurt like hell. I got dressed and left, too scared to act differently than normal in case he wouldn't let me leave - he'd locked us in before. We broke up after a week of avoiding him and talking to a male friend who I really liked. He's now my boyfriend. After a year of being with the now fb I started to suffer panic attacks about my ex after watching a film that triggered it. Now it's hard to kiss or do anything sexual because I'm scared of having a panic attack, and although my boyfriend looks after me amazingly it's getting to both of us and I need help.
my friends seems to be sick of hearing it, think I'm lying or think it's ok because it's not 'real rape' or because he was my bf. I don't want to report it, I just want help