Don't know the best way of typing how I'm feeling into words but I'll try.
I'm quite worried of seeing certain people due to silly things that have happened with me in the past. Even though I have a great relationship with these people, it's as if I'm afraid of them saying something that could cause a potential chain-reaction of me being spoke about in a way which I wouldn't want which causes other people to form opinions about me I wouldn't like.
I struggle to sleep at times due to paranoia, not to mention my irrational fear of spiders in general and one ever potentially being in the room.
Sometimes I get dreaded flashbacks that I can't scribble out, and all I can do is hope that people have forgot or never found out but that's simply something out of my control so I just hope for the best.
I also have quite a high level of self doubt. This sometimes interferes with my studies and such because embedded in my mind I have a "I'm going to fail this anyway" attitude that I can't make go away.
I literally wear a personality mask on a daily basis. I'm generally known as a decent person who people seem to be happy to be around. People come to me for advice and my parents are proud of me. But people don't know and will never find out my inner issues that I've explained.
Would you say that I suffer from anxiety?