I was home schooled till I went to uni, and wasn't even allowed any friends by my mother, as she found out once that I had been flirting with this boy around my own age. My dad (whom my mum divorced and we no longer see) used to be physically abusive and my mum/older siblings would always take his side.
I had severe depression before going to uni and went a year early (at 17, we live in Scotland) just to get away from the family environment. Unfortunately, my depression/mental issues made it difficult for me to cope with the course and I was also bullied/socially ostracised by the people I lived with and on my course. I ended up having to leave last year when I was 19 due to my bad grades, and have been doing the odd bit of part-time work here and there (and trying my hardest to find full-time work, though it's hard given my lack of experience and qualifications and the fact I have nobody who can give me a reference for a job) while staying with my family. I have no friends whom I can stay with. I feel dead inside.
I can't move out till I've saved enough but I feel extremely trapped. I'm like the family scapegoat. I contribute as much as I can to shopping/chores etc. but my family speak to me more like I'm a domestic slave than a human being. Even if I do something like eat something out of the fridge that somebody else wanted to eat, or miss a tiny spot when mowing the lawn, I am shouted at for about half an hour, and they will laugh about it and mock me at dinner time or something. They continually make fun of any of my efforts to get a job too - my sister even encourages her five year old child to insult me.
I also feel physically unsafe, as my brothers are quite aggressive and like to make me feel scared. Whenever they're driving us somewhere, for instance, they will deliberately do so very dangerously (but never in front of a police car or speed camera, oddly enough) in order to get a scared reaction out of me. They will then laugh with my sister later about how scared I looked, as though it's funny, even though they have been doing crazy things like going at 90mph on a 60mph narrow road.
I feel sick and demotivated. I want to move out but I have no idea how to claim Housing Benefit or anything. I tried claiming JSA but they have completely messed up my claim and I only got about 2 days' worth, I have no idea what's going on. Please help.