Hey guys,
basically I'm a sufferer of PTSD... Right now I'm finding it extremely hard to cope and I'm getting closer and closer to self harm..
Despite not self harming in 4 years I feel like I can't help it anymore, I'm just so lonely..
I realised, even though I have a boyfriend (literally the best thing to of ever happened to me).. Whenever I'm not speaking to him. No-one does, even my family.. It's only him that talks to me/wants to talk to me.
I'm only just realising this and my mind's taking this really hard, I'm overthinking, getting angry, shaking, throwing tantrums, kicking and punching things.. I'm literally tearing my hair out not knowing what to do..
I feel like I'm getting closer to a proper nervous breakdown.. I'm getting so angry I'm finding it much harder to control myself :/ I've had this condition for over 10 years and I do get counselling for it.. I just need to escape and I can't.. I just feel so trapped... I feel like I'm in a cycle.
I've never felt as depressed as I have over the past few weeks... I really don't know what to do..
Is there anyone on here willing to hand out some advice.. support? I'd appreiciate anything..
Thank you