I've done my degree and I'm now on a PGCE course.
I've been feeling low/depressed for months now and I think it's down to losing my dad. My dad raised me and I know I made him proud getting to uni. He died in my 1st year of uni (I've just started my 4th).. I went back to uni after his death and never had any time out. I was really proud of myself to get my degree knowing how difficult it was to keep strong in a difficult time. My dad committed suicide and it was very sudden and unexpected.
I feel like I've lost a lot of confidence since losing him and I've not been truly happy since. This is effecting me know because I have very low-self esteem.. I feel like I'm not good enough to be a teacher. I'm very quiet and closed up. I just want to drop out of my course but I don't know if I'm giving up too soon. I just don't feel ready to do this PGCE anymore. I don't feel confident enough and I think I'd benefit from gaining more work experience and doing my PGCE in a few years time when I'm ready and I feel happier. I'm only 21 and I have a 2:1 degree so it's not like I've not achieved anything, I can get a job.