a) Don't you think you're perhaps setting yourself up for disappointment?
b)Wouldn't you agree that you have a degree of self-hate? You're idealising white girls, because you resent being oriental, and so reject anyone who deviates from this 'ideal'
c) (the controversial bit, apologise in advance) Oriental guys aren't necessarily regarded as the top of the 'pecking order'. Are you really in any position to be picky, whether racially or otherwise?