First up, sos this is so long, but I want to get this outta my system and give anyone who cares as much info as I can before the bad comments are slung.
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Right, so I just started 6th Form and there's a bunch of new guys, and more importantly girls, in my school One of these new girls catches the same bus as I do, and pretty quickly she (who has a pretty long-standing boyfriend), myself and my mate have all become pretty good friends. Since my number of really good female friends has never exceeded more than 1 or 2 at a time, it's little surprise that soon after this I worked out I was attracted to her. Like, quite a lot.
Only problem is, of course, that she's already taken. Furthermore I think I've known her too long as a friend for her to even consider me as anything else, even if she decided to break up with him. But annoyingly that hasn't stopped me from, for want of a better word, starting to obsess over her.
The mixed signals sure as hell aren't helping either:
Some days she's talking about her boyfriend and seemingly is dissatisfied, BUT others the opposites true.
Fairly regularly she flirts with me (not my mate, but not sure if that's due to lack of interest or knowing he's taken). BUT as or more often than not she sounds more mocking or teasing than genuinely flirting. She also frequently refers to me as "buddy", which obviously is friend over anything else.
Then she invited me to a party, and later in the evening we snuck away for a few moments and made out. BUT she was pretty drunk and so far as i can tell doesn't remember it - neither of us have brought it up.
Finally she's made a slight habit of gently poking me, usually in the arm but every so often going for the...nipple? It's actually become a running joke between us by this point. Poking back on the arms has not been seen as overstepping any bounds, though for obvious reasons nipple pokes are currently off limits.
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So yeah. I'm pretty damn sure she's either consciously or subconsciously just being a tease. Though I haven't said anything outright, I wouldn't be surprised if she's worked out I at least have a crush on her.
Question is, what the hell do I do about it?
My heads telling me "Drop it and avoid her as best you can!", because the chances of getting her are microscopic. I've moved to slow to be considered sexually or as a potential relationship, especially seeing as she's seemingly happy enough with who she's got. I'm already chasing too much and trying harder will just make the obsession part worse.
BUT I can't just catch another bus, since it's too much effort and will detract from my already crappy social life. More to the point, the rest of my body doesn't wan to give up even knowing it's almost certainly a lost cause.
Any ideas? Either to win her over or more likely accept my place as "just a friend"?
And please, no s*** slinging for liking another guys girlfriend. That doesn't help my situation at all.