Lately I have been growing neurotic again about my sex drive. I feel threatened because I feel like my dad's lifestyle will lower my sex drive (low protein/eats cake a lot/doesn't work out really) and make me fat.
I also feel like a girlfriend would be intolerant of this, the impotence would indeed be a dealbreaker. I also feel like complaining about erectile dysfunction, would be a deal breaker. Basically I believe I'm screwed if I can't get it up or talk about it.
But I think my parents want me to be like this because the whole family is and why should I be special?
I don't know what to do about this thought recurring. Being made impotent is a major insecurity
Sorry if I trigger anyone with an ED
edit: Why am I thinking about dad's libido again…
This morning Dad suggested I may needs medication for my obsessive thought processes and high levels of anxiety. I shared a concern about the side-effects (I meant stuff like erectile dysfunction) and he said it's wroth it if it'll stop it because I may never have an reship if I don't otherwise...