I'm sitting here at home on new years eve feeling pretty depressed, I have friends who are the most unreliable people, always bail out when I make plans with them and they rarely make plans with me. So I want to vent, sorry for the length.
It was a few weeks back and after weeks of back breaking work to fund my gap year I convinced myself I really wanted to go out and just dance the night away, who gives a **** what anyone thought of me. Of course I could have sat at home lingering in a abyss of pity and depression watching netflix or playing video games like most people would for fear of being judged, but I decided not to.
For whatever reason I also decided to roll molly for the second time on that ocassion.
It was a dingy underground club I was well aqquainted with in London, frequented by the quirky, alternative type and devoid of the horrid chavs or students who think they're hard who are oh so common in the million Liquid/Oceana/*insert typical student club*s you find.
As I entered the club I could feel it kicking in and I was bewitched by the pulsating deep house, I made my way to the spot right underneath the DJ and lost myself in the music.
That night I was so social it was amazing, I was free of the shackles of 'clingy friends who aren't having fun and don't want you too either' or 'your mate who always has to approach every girl in the club' and suprisingly peopled approached me numerous times.
I found two guys who were incredibly friendly to me and after telling them the truth,(that my friends had cancelled on me) they told me that I could stay with them the whole night, banter and bromance ensued. I still have their numbers.
On the dancefloor I also met a guy who was impressed by my dancing, we had a brief chat and I went off. I met him later in the smoking area ( this particular venue has quite an spacious smoking area with numerous benches, making it something of a social haven) and he introduced me to his friends who all did economics at LSE. We talked about lots of things, they were suprised I was only 18.
Later that night I also befriended a group of quirky individual rah types (though not the stuck up snob type, the kind of indy type who call themself poppy etc), we had incredibly enlightening chat, the type I find hard to come by living in a ****ty urban area where everyone wears primark hoodies, 3/4 of the best friends I grew up with have criminal convictions/ have sold drugs etc.
We spoke of current topics ranging from peoples opinions on politics, current events etc I met one truly mindblowing girl who I had a spark with and would have loved to have taken things further with but she was a tad bit frigid and as she was a Edinburgh student I thought it would be fruitless to try and pursue.
Over the course of the night, each of the compatriots I had founded great friendships with left the club and I shared heartfelt goodbyes with them. I was hesitant about trying to forge genuine relationships with them for fear I might come off to desperate or needy, so I bade them adieu one by one.
I left the club feeling so content and it was genuinely one of the best experiences of my life. That being said most people were somewhat shocked I was by myself but I suppose my sociability and charm quickly overode their fears.
Considering doing it again soon because I have pretty much no life and rarely do anything with the few of my friends who haven't gone Uni this year, there is also a DJ im a BIG fan of playing in a club in London this Friday.
This is quite a wierd thread and not expecting many people to post but it was thereapeutic and it helped me with my somewhat depressing circumstances.