I graduated in July, managed to find a 'proper' job but I got made redundant in November. There's virtually nothing going at this time of year so it's incredibly depressing being stuck in my house with nothing to do, usually on my own, being constantly paranoid that my rent/council tax/bills won't go out of my account. I'm too nervous to even check my bank balance.
Looking through job websites and seeing nothing but the same ****ty recruitment/sales jobs every day is incredibly demoralizing, everything else is temporary, zero hours or minimum wage and the few jobs that actually do look appealing have some extravagant requirement that I don't meet. I could get a retail job with no trouble, but I really don't want to do that sort of job again.
I have an outstanding CV that most graduates would kill for but i just feel like a complete failure. I'm running out of motivation to even get out of bed in the morning and have a shower never mind do anything else. Can't see any future for myself at all and it feels ****ing horrible seeing everyone else I know in love, off on a fancy holiday, in a well paid job whilst i'm doing nothing.