I've never been very sure of what I wanted to do in uni. I had already applied and been accepted to study politics, but last minute I changed my mind and opted for a foundation year in Engineering instead. Having not enjoyed maths since GCSEs, I failed to find a genuine interest in the subject, so my lack of motivation meant I didn't do very well - but I passed. This academic year I started my degree in Civil Engineering and I hate it. It feels like I am forcing myself to do something just for the sake of financial stability, but I can't even imagine being engineer. Can you really build a career on something you do not have a natural ability to do? I am 21, feels like I've just wasted years of my life. I don't even think the people around me believe I can be an engineer because I spent most of my life excelling in arts and humanities.