I have a really have a really bad personality, I think it's because of my low self esteem and the hate I have for myself , I am really horrible to my friends I mean what I say to them as a joke but now I've realised that it's not a joke and I am really horrible to them I want to stop being the way I am but that will probably mean me being quiet and saying nothing.
I don't want to be a bitch but I don't want to be a mute either , what shall I do and how can't I stop being so mean ?