I had a dad who was always beating the crap out of me and my mum and I mostly lived in fear of him when I was younger. He never showed affection, just most of the time only just about tolerated me. My mum was never allowed to show me affection because he hated having her attention put towards her children and would take it out on us. Now, as a 25 yr old woman, I find it hard to trust people, I'm awkward most of the time.
Its funny u started this thread because a few days ago I was thinking about how my childhood messed me up as an adult. I look toward authority figures for comfort. As a 25 year old, I don't feel like an adult most of the time, still feel like a child in many ways seeking approval from everyone I meet. I guess it doesn't help that I look like a 15 yr old so most people treat me like I'm younger than them anyway.