I have a female friend who I also like more than a friend. But she is in a relationship and I have accepted that we can never be together. She doesn't have feelings for me anyway.
So that being said, I like being friends with her. We get on really well and I'm happy when I'm around her.
The only thing is, sometimes I feel like I am too nice to her, and treat her as if she is more than just a friend. I am always helping her whenever she asks and I am always available to her.
Sometimes I feel maybe she doesn't appreciate everything I do for her.
Also, I feel really attached to her and sometimes I feel I act a bit needy and clingy. I know that's not good but that's what I feel.
I've never had a girlfriend so maybe my closeness to this girl is because of that? I don't know.
I want to stay friends with her, but I am scared of pushing her away or distancing myself from her, because I like the closeness I have with this girl and I don't really want to do anything to ruin our friendship.
So I'm not sure how to proceed. I also get really upset easily with things regarding her. I care about her a lot.
Do you guys think that this is a result of my unrequited feelings towards her? I don't mean to do it but I can't help it sometimes.
I already know I care about her a lot more than she cares about me. Maybe she doesn't need to care that much? Maybe I am expecting too much?
What are your thoughts?
She's my oneitis :/
Lately I have been thinking about her all the time. And it just makes me really sad.