So basically, my thing for one of the guys in my year started in September (2014). It started off just as a 'I think he's fit, but he's kind of a dick' thing. As the months progressed, I started to find him more and more physically appealing, until January when I realised I kind of liked him. Kinda. I think it was also around this time when he had a few pretty crappy things happen to him and it was actually adorable how sad he looked when he thought nobody else could see. I just wanted to hug him, or at least befriend him so he could see that not everybody hated him. So yeah, that just made my crush worse.
In February, we spoke for the first time. Not actually in real life, but over Facebook. We've had quite a few conversations over the last two months or so and he's such a lovely person. He's funny, clever and quite witty and just a genuinely nice person.
Problem is, I can't tell if he likes me or not. I always start our conversations, but he's the one that keeps them going and generally doesn't end them. To add to this, we have this insane eye contact thing going on at the moment. At school, sometimes I'll look at him and he's looking at me and we'll just kinda stare at each other for about 5 seconds before I break eye contract. Either that or I'll catch him staring and he'll quickly glance away. Seriously though, the eye contact is really intense.. I don't know how to explain it, but it makes me weirdly tingly and shivery (wow I sound like a two year old).
And to add to all this, he's incredibly fit. But it's not just that he's fit, he's also absolutely adorable and just.. Yeah. So I want to make out with him, but I also want to cuddle with him and watch dumb movies with him and laugh with him.
Basically, I'm super confused because I've never had a crush like this before. Normally all my crushes have been based on physical things and I've kinda just ignored their personality. Somebody please help me because I seriously don't understand this or anything really?
Thanks ^_^