I'm a 20yo female and I've only had one boyfriend, it was a long distance relationship and I'd known him for years beforehand so there wasn't really a getting to know each other, or dating phase. Basically: I have little experience dating.
I am also a bit socially awkward. I've gotten better at hiding it but I blush easily and can become flustered quickly.
My ex and I broke up last June. And it's only now that I've developed romantic feelings for anyone. I'm ready to date, I really want a proper relationship.
Before I get into this, let me say...This will sound somewhat childish. I'm a very detail-oriented person and a lot of stuff goes through my head. These are basically just my...observations and thoughts.
I don't know exactly when I noticed him. We are in the same course, and so we were in two classes together last term, and are also in two classes together this term and we must have lab at the same time (different teachers though) as I see him then.
At some point last term I noticed him. I assume it began with us making eye contact frequently. At some point I noticed he tended to sit in the same row as me during one of our classes, always two seats away. Sometimes a female friend of his would sit with him, but even when she started sitting a couple rows ahead with some other friends he didn't join her. He seemed to always sit in my row unless there wasn't room near me. I told myself that it could easily be coincidence though. He never spoke to me.
Now this term, that class has more people so he has been sitting behind me. However, in our other class he started sitting next to me. There have only been 3 classes so far but day 1 a friend sat with me, day 2 she was absent and he sat with me, and today (3) there was actually no chair beside me so he pulled one up and sat by me. By this point I'm thinking it can't be all in my head. Yet he still hasn't spoken to me. Today, because we were next to each other we ended up in a group sharing our assignments with other people. As I was reading mine I could see him looking at me and nodding and such. I found it increasingly difficult to form intelligent sentences and was possibly probably blushing. However I survived. With rattled nerves. Because clearly I can't handle myself around males I'm attracted to. I knew tonight I'd see him before lab, and thought "tonight I'll talk to him! I'll just ask him what he thinks of the new class in this series! It'll be fine!" I positioned myself near my class on a bench. He came and sat about 10 feet away against the wall (his class was a bit down the hall). I'm thinking, is now the time? Should I say something? But then I realized how quiet the hallway was. Though the other people in the hall were a good 50+ feet away it was so quiet I was sure they'd hear anything I said. Oh wait now he's looking like he's trying to take a nap! I surely can't talk to him now! Several minutes go by. Aw man, now this other weird 30yo dude who I see stare at me has sat by me. Ugh. Opportunity lost.
So that's where I'm at right now. Please don't be mean, just looking for some friendly advice...