Ok, basically I'm doing my AS levels and my exams start in less than 4 weeks. I've recently been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and an eating disorder after suffering for years. I'm in a really awful place at the moment. My eating disorder takes over my life and I'm constantly weak and tired and worried about my weight. Depression drains my energy even more and makes me not care about anything and want to die. Anxiety is horrible, I'm always having panic attacks. The waiting list for treatment is super long so I'm just getting worse and worse.
Stress from college has a really bad effect on me and just makes everything so much worse. The closer exams get, the more, I quite literally, want to jump off a cliff. I want to prioritise health, happiness and recovery but with so much work I just can't. As for the work, I can't focus, I have no passion or motivation and I don't even know what I want to do career wise anymore. I'm terrified of failing or not getting the grades for a degree or being left behind everyone else. I just don't know what to do, I can't revise or concentrate no matter how hard I try.
Sorry for the confusing babble, I sound like a spoilt child. I guess any advice would be appreciated. Btw I study double health and social care and psychology.