So I was on a date he tried to kiss me whilst walking on the street. It made me uncomfortable and I turned him down. I wasnt feeling the moment at all. A while later he tries again whilst we are sitting down this time I let it happen (not for long though). I rejected the first attempt as people were waking by. He says he's not expecting me to change but one day he knows I'll initiate. I kinda looked over at him and said '' does this mean you're leaving me alone from now on? ". I obviously didn't want this, He said yes.
Anyway it didn't last long lol. He drove me home and we sat in his car for a while talking rubbish to be honest lol you could tell we wanted to kiss each other. We kissed a couple times, I admitted being nervous (he put his hand on my heart and it was beating fast, I felt about 15 lol. I could tell he was testing the waters to French kiss, so I let him know I've never done it before. He said we could practice, so we did but I stopped and started nervously laughing. He said he knows I enjoy kissing (I do) but I keep killing the moment.
Then before I left I said I didn't get my hug, so we hugged for a bit then shared a passionate kiss with none of my silly interruptions . We both kinda sat there looking at each other after.
I can't help feeling nervous at certain times. Its always the last minute I get comfy and relax and the kiss is so worth it. He seems to be patient with it all...but how do I relax and just initiate??? I don't want him to think I'm not into him when I am