I'm in my first year of Imperial and I am 60% sure that I have failed six of my exams, the sixth one marginally. There are ten elements in first year, 8 exams + two coursework components, of which you must pass five or more to progress to second year.
I have always struggled with anxiety and 'episodes' of depression for the last several years of my life, but have rather stupidly never seeked medical help.
Throughout the year I have been happy mostly; however, worrying about my grandpa's illness, coupled with anxiety throughout exams, leading me to have rashes on my wrists, I believe, have hindered my performance. I set myself an exam timetable for Easter and for each day I fell behind my schedule, the more anxious and panicked I became and the less productive I became. This was due to poor exam technique as well, as I concentrated on one topic at a time for far too long.
Now that I know that i have well and truly f***ed up, I cannot stop thinking about failure and feel a great deal of self-hatred, and am experiencing occasional suicidal thoughts.
Would mitigating circumstances be something worth putting in, or would the university not allow that? I know that I can do so much better in second year, and to have to be withdrawn from university would f*** my entire life up and make me lose everything I had.