If I penetrate another man but don't let him penetrate me. Or if I receive oral from him but do not give. Just wondering because I personally don't think that is homosexual. And like I've never kissed a man but ok.
This is long but I'll just say I have a gay friend at work. He just walked over to me on my first day. I had a hunch he was gay because he was like all nervous and laughy and licking his lips and looking and I wasn't getting uncomfortable I just ignored it and kept talking. Like I dont want to look homophobic by telling him to **** off yet I don't want to give him any ideas. He's also a pretty top bloke. We work together so eh. So he asked me for drinks like the staff usually go after work to the pub. It was my first day on he had been there for much longer and pretty much hosted a shindig for me. We started talking and then decided to start going for drinks by ourselves after work.
So couple weeks ago Idk can't really remember everything but one night we catch a cab together. It's late and I'm buzzed so I tell him to come inside. We're cotching, watching telly, eating crisps like knobs, and I'm fading off so I say I'm going to bed. He immediately accepts the couch but I tell him no that's bull****, take the bed, and I take the couch. I'm not comfortable so I go to my bed eventually but we sleep head to toe lmao. He sits up and stares at me in the dark so I roll over. I havent told nobody about this because eh, no.
So anyway we're hanging out more often and Idk this passed weekend we're bar hopping, just the two of us, and we eventually end up at a place where a lot of gays go. His idea because all of his mates go there a lot. We always make jokes with each other like at this point he's told me how he feels about me and I should've run but now we're solid mates. So I always play it off with him like I leaned over a table and I look over my shoulder and told him, "Don't get any ideas, you." And I winked. It was a JOKE. And many ppl like roar in laughter but some of my straight friends were like wot?
I play it off and start just having a laugh with everyone and letting the gay guys touch my groin and biceps because I'm an idiot and drinking, whatever. I like the attention and I kind of leave my mate behind. He texts me and says he's going because I've wandered off anyway, and I say no, and we go back to my place again. Well I let him perform oral on me but I told him not to tell anyone so now he's all gushy with me and calling me pet names and I'm about to quit because I can't trust him.
So anyway yea I just need to get it off my chest, it just happened on Saturday and I been avoiding him and dreading work tomorrow. It's not like I did anything to him, but I'm not turning down someone wanting to help me out lol Ideas on how to ****ing handle this? Ta.