I have become very depressed since having my son who is now 19 months old. I'm not bonding with him, I am so lonely, tired from the sadness and I am almost certain I have depression.
I really want to go to the doctor but I am training to be a social worker ( something I've always wanted to do) and I'm worried I will be asked to leave the course until I'm better and will never be considered fit for practice. This would depress me even more even if I was getting proffesionnal support. I also worry that going to the doctor will make me no better. I hate where i live as I'm not near any friends, haven't met someone to spend my life with so am lonely, and I have little support with my son so life is tiring. These cant be changed with therapy. However, i was always a very happy person when I had much less so I do think I may be sad most because of clinical depression. I would like to have the opportunity to get help.
At the moment I only have 100 days of practice placement left and then I am qualified. I have not been given my placement yet and it could Be a few weekuntil I am, then it will be five months of placement. Should I just wait until My course has finished and I am qualified? Will a diagnosis of depression impact on my employability as a social worker? Would my uni even find out?
I feel more than capable of doing my placement. In fact it will make me feel better as I am occupied I always feel happier when I'm busy And around people.
Prior to this I had never even been to a GP before and had no illnesses what so ever hence I passed the initial medical questionnaire completely